Origins: In God's Presence
Each of us would acknowledge there are times when for
no clear reason we suddenly feel ourselves to be in the presence of God. It
may happen at a favorite mountain or coastal setting, in a worship service
or anywhere the spirit is free to communicate with God. It is a memorable
experience that we can recount in great detail years later.
At various times throughout his life, Wesley would have
intense experiences of the presence of God. The strange warming of his
heart at Aldersgate (5-24-38) is the most commonly known of these experiences.
But there were other times as well — some more remarkable than others.
At an all-night, New Year's Eve love feast with the Fetter
Lane Society and a few Oxford colleagues (12-31-38), Wesley expressed “awe
and amazement” at the power of God coming mightily upon them at 3 a.m., “insomuch
as many cried out for exceeding joy, and many fell to the ground.”
On another occasion, while preaching at Sheffield [6-17-42],
Wesley had to stop in the middle of his sermon: “our hearts were so
filled with a sense of the love of God, and our mouths with prayer and thanksgiving.”
At other times, Wesley would record in his journal ecstatic experiences of
God's presence.
As 1744 drew to an end, Wesley found himself “unusually
lifeless and heavy.” At a love feast on the Sunday evening of Dec. 23, he
experienced another nosebleed: “Just as I was constraining myself to speak,
I was stopped whether I would [speak] or no. In a few minutes it stayed, and
all our hearts and mouths were opened to praise God. Yet the next day (Monday)
I was again as a dead man. But in the evening, while I was reading prayers
at Snowsfields, I found such light and strength as I never remember to have
had before. I saw every thought (as well as action or word) just as it was
rising in my heart, and whether it was right before God or tainted with pride
or selfishness. I never knew before (I mean not as at this time) what it
was to be 'still before God.’”
On Tuesday, Christmas Day: “I waked by the grace of God,
in the same spirit, and about eight, being with two or three that believed
in Jesus, I felt such an awe and tender sense of the presence of God as greatly
confirmed me therein. So that God was before me all the day long; I sought
and found him in every place, and could truly say when I lay down at night,
‘I have lived a day.’”
We never know when or where God will reach out and touch
us.
Craven E. Williams
President
Greensboro College
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